It’s been a little while since I wrote here due to the holiday’s and a lot of running around. Nevertheless, the holiday season is over and I am so elated to be done shopping and traveling LOL. I am pretty sure I left off with doing my 30 day no contact with MM, but yea that didn’t last all but two weeks. I actually contacted him and we have been in contact ever since, but that isn’t really what I want to talk about.
Lately, I have found that I don’t regret the affair, and I have prayed and asked for forgiveness. I still don’t regret sleeping with someone else’s husband. Does that make me heartless? Does that make me less of a woman? Does that make evil? I would tend to say no but I am sure there’s some scorned wife that would say I am an evil bitch.
Anyways, I came upon a topic that was intriguing because as I stated I don’t regret the actual affair. Yes, I was hurt by the ending of it but not because he didn’t leave his wife (which is my assumption, he could have). I was hurt by the lack of respect shown at the closing of the affair. The end came rushed for both parties and when the dust finally settled neither of us was really ready for it to end, or at least not in the way it did. So I have had a lot of time to analyze my behavior and what my actual intentions were. I came to find that I had absolutely no intentions with this man, and I never set out to ruin his marriage or her life. I simply fell in love with him after several months and if I had to decide again I still would do it.
Also, I am sure I’ll ruffle some feathers with this thought but in affairs I’d rather be the side chick any day rather then the scorned, bitter, deceived wife. How can you really come back into the relationship knowing that trust was broken? In most cases the mistress moves on…. leaving the husband and wife to muddle through their mess.